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hey, so we started a new casting. i'm a lion king less (at most, 3 days a week but only cast 2) which is so nice. i'm at block party and fantasmic three days of the week, making studios my now more-visited park. halleluier. er.
and i'm going home for a bit, come november. getting time off for thanksgiving was a bust, so i put in for some time off the first week of that month and got it. four days to get back to rhode island and see everyone. i can't wait... it's been almost a year and a half since i've been up there, and seen anyone who hasn't come down to disney to visit, like mom and ash, dad and grace. not sure what i'll be up to once i'm there, but it'll be a nice break in the scene, i'm sure. it'll be nice to get out in the cold too, maybe brave the 40 degree weather? have an early thanksgiving?
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[21 Sep 2008|12:17pm] |
[my mother would hate this, but i think i've developed a new allergy... a food allergy.]
[the last few times i've eaten fish, i've been getting incredible pain from chest pressure. i'm not sure if this is an allergy symptom, or if something else is happening to me... but oddly enough, it only happens immediately after i eat fish. not shellfish, or imitation fish... those have been fine. it's after i have a fillet of something, some kind of fish with scales, that i have problems.]
[eh?]
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[03 Sep 2008|06:55am] |
[and here i am, another year older. couldn't be happier about it :) ]
[epcot without a hitch, and cake and ice cream afterwards. holy hell.]
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[27 Aug 2008|12:03am] |
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[skipped out on another bar party tonight to go home, rest, watch some tv. i'm not sure what's been happening to my social life, apart from some fierce college ghosts that are coming back to haunt me. with a vengeance. my immediate actions are telling me that it almost makes sense to retire from life for awhile and wait until these feelings subside. i had everything all rationalized out and reasoned, for the time being.]
[i hate being so messed up. and i have no idea what this problem is going to mean to my future. all i know is that it's mostly cyclical, and rationality will come back.]
[unfortunately, so will the inconvenience. hence the cycle... and i'm not sure if it's even something that a professional can help me with. is it worth seeing one? i have other problems of course that i'm sure one could fix, and it'd probably do me good to go and see one. i'm not sure what they'd think about what's haunting me now, and why it happens. i don't know that there is an answer to the question, aside from knowing that i'm not the only one in the world, we are not as rare as you'd think we are, but we're the hardest of all the spectrum to understand.]
[to quote an ancient classic, "know thyself." i believe it was aristotle... and i also believe that i never will.]
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[25 Aug 2008|12:40am] |
[so, i skipped out on a bar party tonite to stay at home and relax. i kinda don't have the money to drink out, and i've been trying not to gain weight anyway... i have a feeling that a few pounds have crept back on, seeing as i haven't been able to do block party full out for at least a month. i needed a nice quiet evening in anyway. next week should be fun, and i get my labor day birthday off! hellayeah.]
[playing the flute w/ kristin tomorrow, and seeing what's up with the status of the duet on the disney list. it's nice to be forming a duet with someone and to be playing again, even if it's just rehearsing right now. performing will come.]
[isaac's cat refuses. REFUSES. to use her litterbox. little shit.]
[i could kick her. but she's cute.]
[not sure how to punish or treat that situation?]
[anyhow, i'm also almost finished w/ harry potter and the goblet of fire. i think one more chapter and a glass of wine will take me to bed, and i'll complete the book tomorrow morning. happy for the day off, but i'm looking at the hours for my usual shifts and am noticing that the summer hours are weaning. cast b has gone from 8 to 6 hours at lion king, and fantasmic has gone to one show per night most nights of the week. what's gonna happen to my paycheck, i wonder. hopefully i can pull in this kid who's looking into moving in. i wonder how soon he can, if he's currently on a lease or what. hrm.]
[broke out the tap shoes for a bit today. forgot how much fun that was.]
[that's all for today. funky]
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[21 Aug 2008|10:06am] |
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[we're onto day 3 of tropical stofm fay. tuesday was bitter, yesterday had spots of ok weather, but we ultimately did parade and show in the rain and wind because we were the only theme park who had yet to put out no parade or shows during the storm. good thing we're the only park whose parade and shows feature tumblers and stunt people.... fantasmic last night was a disaster, everything was done in either wind or safety mode. it was pretty lame, in my opinion.]
[i've also finished the prisoner of azkaban. i'm going to be starting the goblet of fire at work today.]
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[17 Aug 2008|11:38pm] |
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[a reading update... as it's my day off and we all know how little i actually get done on my day off... well, besides reading.]
[finished sorceror's stone the other day before work got out. got through the first 3 chapters of the chamber of secrets yesterday, and continue to read the majority of it today. if i get it finished tonite, i can start the prisoner of azkaban at work tomorrow, and possibly pick up the goblet of fire in time for fay to stop by. candles and a hurricane, i wonder what i'll be up to?]
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[14 Aug 2008|11:41pm] |
[so i guess i finished reading the host. way disappointed with the end of it. there was such an easier solution to the problem that was at hand, and i wish meyer would have taken the route i hoped. instead, she had to wrangle 3 extra characters into the plot at the very end to tie up the ends. weak.]
[and i guess i'm starting the harry potter series. it was only a matter of time, i suppose. got over halfway done w/ sorceror's stone at work today. ok.]
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[08 Aug 2008|10:39pm] |
[about halfway through meyer's the host. a few thoughts.]
[just as many of my friends said, the beginning is somewhat hard to get through. it's one of those books that you wish you had a machete for parts of, to just cut through the tedious part before the real action takes off. having said that, i've gotten to the action, and it's FANTASTIC. at half through, i'm happy that the first 100 pages or so took as long as they did, because even at that quantity, i didn't know almost all i needed to know about the main characters and how it is the aliens in this book work with their host bodies. 100 pages of importance.]
[and i can see how many of my friends couldn't get through it.]
[i gave my copy of breaking dawn to mandi today. she got through 130 plus pages at work alone. she got through the first big event, and just covered the big plot reveal. fantastic!]
[a little note about work notes. i'm directed by a director who overlooks both the equity, and non-equity performers. the only people qualified to give me performance notes are my director, and the disney character (non-equity) staging team. on the list of people who cannot give me notes are, and may not be limited to: other non-equity performers, equity performers, acting coaches, dance captains, voice coaches, equity leads, stunt captains, and character duty captains. i've learned, in my company, that people like to make stupid comments about other people's performances, which i can't say i'm unguilty of when a performance has angered or affected me. i do feel that when i have an issue, i factor safety along with the show concept before bringing the issue to the appropriate authorities.]
[i heavily, gravely even, dislike another non-equity performer giving me notes, and then scoffing at me or making excuses when i jovially make a comment back about his performance. i am not above this issue, but i feel that it is always in everyone's best interest to work together in making a show a success, and not to diminish one person's job for personal taste. especially as my peer. dumb.]
[i think my roommate's gone. his tour doesn't leave for another few weeks, but he's living in hotel housing near his rehearsal site, and has taken a full load of belongings with him when i drove him for his first rehearsal. we've texted back and forth. i guess that's all the contact we'll have for awhile.]
[so, on top of his bedroom being furnished, and open, we still have another open bedroom. anyone wanna live in florida with me?]
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[04 Aug 2008|10:52pm] |
[finished breaking dawn... now i've got stephenie meyer's vampire series down. maybe in the future i'll read it again?]
[opened up a new can of springy snakes... ideas i didn't think i had. went out and bought her alien book, the host, but also thought about a second attempt at harry potter. the first time i'd even looked at a book, jen nagel had loaned one of hers for my day at the dmv. it wasn't the first in the series, which i hated, in all my compulsive and anal glories. it may have been that which turned me off, or the fact that i don't much care for rowling's narrative. something about the way she writes. there were points where i didn't care for my vampire author's writing either, but her story overcame that, and i don't remember ever wanting to put any of her books down. save for when i needed to have human moments (haha).]
[back to the snakes. i love fantasy and saga. i didn't realize that. it was after the vampires were through with me, and i remembered my love for pullman's dark materials trilogy and all my other past fantasy loves that i realized this. next will probably be harry potter. then will maybe be the hobbit, though there's a lot unrealistic about that. i also realized that the more away from human these characters are, the more i don't associate. which is why i loved pullman, meyer, might rowling. hobbit? questionable.]
[but now i have a new library list. i'm such a geek.]
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[02 Aug 2008|12:24am] |
[weird set of days. lion king was a blast on thursday. not so much today... wah wah.]
[driving isaac to his last hat-into-bpb shift, then headed over to barnes and noble to pick up my very own copy of BREAKING DAWN! i'm totally into that vampire shit. hah!]
[i didn't mean to get hooked into it. but it's really good. i also am wondering if harry potter will ever happen. i borrowed one of jen nagle's books once, and i remember hating j.k. rowling's narrative. the way she writes... gross. i might try it again, from the top?]
[eh?]
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[27 Mar 2008|11:19am] |
[oh my freaking god totally playing the lazy card on buying a wireless router. whoops.]
[which means that i'm typing this on isaac's computer right now. ugh.]
[not a lot has changed, tho, hence the lack of entries, but i had a good day off today at epcot w/ jonjon, seanny, and meka. we drank a lot and then went to mitsukoshi for the sush.]
[i've been thinking a lot about auditions for things and what i should be doing w/ my time now. and about maybe asking someone out now too. who knows.]
[it's weird finally being practically and realistically into someone. whom i don't know very well.]
[moral of the story is i'm getting off the computer to get on w/ that. again, more w/ the life off the computer, the way it was meant to be.]
[laterz.]
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[10 Mar 2008|11:22pm] |
[hi, and sorry for the lack of posts. even now i think i have to be quick.]
[i'm done moving, and i'm in poinciana now, living with isaac and working mostly at the studios now. it's nice to be out of animal kingdom. what's funny is that while i lived in parc vue, that was the furthest park from me, yet now that i've moved it's the closest.]
[anyhow, i'm on isaac's computer now as i don't have internet yet on mine. i'm working on finding a wireless router to fix that problem, but until then, it'll be sparing posts here and even on facebook. the best thing you can do to get ahold of me is call or text me.]
[honestly i think that's the best thing anyway. this generation's turned too much to computers and less to real life. i say fuck that. talk to people's faces. spend less time online with people and more time outside with people. speak, don't type.]
[and on that note, i'm out. come see me do parade at the disney hollywood studios if you can.]
[and christine, can't come soon enough :) ]
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[01 Jan 2008|11:10pm] |
[ and that's show business! ]
[now, that christmas is officially over in the magic kingdom, i'm back to my usual grind of lots of lion king. reality hit.]
[and it was the most wonderful thing in the world, because now that i've learned how to make friends and better evaluate people, i know now that it's ok to dislike people and to turn off drama around me, rather than putting up with it to be "workplace cordial." i walked away from about 4 conversations today, and it felt so amazing. and i don't feel bad at all about it.]
[as obvious as this was the whole time, i was never one to pick up on such things. but in a strange way, i feel, now that it's turned the new year, like i've grown more. i hit some milestone in the past 24 hours. things are more clear to me. i don't feel like such an inadequate dumbfuck.]
[but i have to go, my friend chris just called and they're waiting for me a jellyrolls. whoopsie.]
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[31 Dec 2007|12:11am] |
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[well, i'm learning fantasmic next week... i'm not exactly sure what track it will be, but i have a hunch. not the track i ultimately want, but then again, i'm learning fantasmic. i'll shut up.]
[the nice thing about knowing this little fact is that it foreshadows my learning another parade. more info on this to come.]
[today will be my last day of mickey's twas. while i'm already ready for a change, i will miss it greatly. i couldn't have been cast with a better group of people for the holidays. and some are going on to do other shows and parades, that i know or will be learning, so i will see these faces for times to come, and i love that. i love that i'll see people i like again from these shows. i don't think i've done a show whose cast i liked more (here in disney, that is) and i'm super psyched that people are learning shows that i know.]
[in other words, saying goodbye to this show isn't necessarilly saying goodbye to my castmates. nice.]
[and here's to a change of pace. see you, 2007 :) ]
[and happy new year, everyone!]
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[29 Dec 2007|01:13am] |
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[today was strange.]
[i hit a wall at work, when even at my most strenuous show i've never done it. it happened today at twas, and i went into my last show completely on auto-pilot, without a prayer in the world. i was so exhausted. i slept the whole half hour before the show back stage right, and let everyone else be what they would be in the greenroom, but when i hopped back into costume and prepped for my entrance, i already knew i was done. and i accidentally hit jess in the head again with my guitar, which happens every so often. jess is a good egg. i need to stop doing that.]
[learned today that a cast member has quite some ballet technique. i think she learned something about me too.]
[i also learned a valuable lesson about fitting in, and about charm. and how it takes some of one to get to do the other. openmindedness has never been my forte, and i've been cutting myself off from some of my coworkers for a very stupid reason. hindering myself from being myself, and i'm not sure what i'm afraid of. maybe thinking that being close to them might change me in a way that i don't want to be changed. in a way that i've been before and didn't like myself then. but i shouldn't have to change myself if people want to be a friend, isn't that the whole point of it all?]
[i don't think they dislike me. i'd get quite a different vibe if they did. i think i'm neutralized. i just wish i had figured out sooner how to be more friendly with them.]
[i guess it's never too late.]
[tomorrow. and two days after that. then no more twas.]
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[27 Dec 2007|01:03am] |
[another wonderful note to add..]
[it's both amazing and utterly delighting to go back and read posts from the past.]
[it's a great meter of how much you've changed.]
[and a greater meter of how much you haven't.]
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[um, so hey everyone.]
[i'm not sure if writing here is just a way of grappling for something from my past to lean onto for awhile, or a way of coming into grips with my life with a method that used to work. i liked this livejournal. a lot. let's see if it's worth picking back up again.]
[so the good news is that after graduating college, finally, i'm still alive. walt disney world seems to like me, and they're casting me in shows and parades which is a good sign. i'm useful. for what talent they need. most importantly i'm thrilled to have benefits out of college. as much as i'd love to go equity tomorrow, the stability in full-time, non-equity is nice for now. i appreciate it. i don't think i could deal with going temporary contract to temporary contract for right now. so characters is a stepping stone. a good, stable stepping stone, and my casting board likes me. if i do the math, i should be happy. and so i am. fantastic.]
[when i was in college, i was a seasonal character, who worked puppets at festival of the lion king and pluto in the animal kingdom parade. now i also dance in both festival of the lion king and the animal kingdom parade, and i also perform in mickey's 'twas the night before christmas show as the reindeer. like i said, glamour? questionable. stability and benefits, my rock.]
[still single, always thinking that i could work out the kinks by the time i got out of college and be on with it. found out that the kinks only get worse with the baggage. great. now i'm not sure whether it's better to be open minded or asexual. maybe i was a worm in a past life. that rationalization makes me feel like i'm not at blame, hah.]
[but i'm making lots of friends and coworkers and acquaintances, and very quickly too, i might add. i met joey fatone this week, although briefly, and also got a smile and a wave from andie macdowell, to my face. that was kinda fun.]
[and i have a nice place to live that 's all done up and stylish. ikea opened in orlando last month. ultrameggafreakingfab. it's nice to not live in a dorm slash living room slash studio. it's nice to be me, i do think. moral-of-the-story style.]
[so i guess this is meant to be a way of documenting my battles and triumphs for awhile. let's see what happens, again.]
[peace.]
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[05 Apr 2006|12:21am] |
[best news of the day...]
[I GOT INTO WALT DISNEY WORLD ENTERTAINMENT! HERE'S TO A SUMMER OF FUN IN DISNEY!!!]
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[11 Mar 2006|02:59pm] |
[that sounds about right too...]
[it's like they know us...]
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